All that can't leave behind.

One Word. Wow. That's all I can say after reading back all the old entries that I've posted. A lot have changed since then. I used to be someone who cared about people, but now I guess not so much. People do change or is it feelings change ? I'm gonna stick to the second option. People don't normally change not in any ordinary circumstances. I've realized that myself. Thinking that people would change well that's gonna be a huge letdown because truthfully people don't change.

Every time I look at you, all these words and images pops up into my mind. But the only question that keep on popping out is "Why must it turn out these way?" Well what is done,is done. Nothing I can do to change it. All we can do is walk from it but I assure you never to run from your past because sure as hell one day you will wake up and ask yourself WHY. Yeah that is the one thing that people always ask especially when they are alone and reminiscing old memories that is the first question that pops into their mind. What say you ?

I'm missing people, mostly people from the past. How time has changed them and their feelings upsets me sometime. So I'm choosing to not care about and just lay low so that I won't be hurt. I've been keeping off the radar this past few weeks and it has been working good for me. Plus people won't even notice if I'm not there. Haha. Tumblr sure has a huge effect on me. Oh I forgot to mention the reason I don't blog anymore. Well there's this website called tumblr and it mind-blowing + awesome. The best way to escape reality.

Fill your day with all the GIF's and quotes and pictures and reblog em. I could go all day rebloging awesome posts. Sounds like I don't really have a life.Hey,It's no good saying that you don't have a life. Note to self, you should always I repeat always be grateful with whatever that you have. No complains.end of story. Goddddd,I really need to something ! There's nothing much to do now that semester is finally coming to an end. The weird part is this semester seems like such a blurr since time flew so fast like a blink of an eye. Okaayy.. I'm slightly exaggerating that part. Haih. Got nothing more to say. Will promise to post something more meaningful next time. Promise ! For more update you can always check out my tumblr.http://miseryhatescompany.tumblr.com/ That's all from me.Adios Amigos ~

ps: Im gonna post a few pictures from tumblr that I find rather interesting.For me that is (^_^)

emo much ?

I'll show a lighter version. Not so emo. A funny one ;)




Now this is funny and kind of disturbing at the same time (*_*)

Till then.take care peeps ;)

such a long gap.

Hello2 everyone.I'm having my finals now but not really in the mood to study since the paper is this 13th of November.So long eyhh makes me even lazier to start studying,let alone open the notes and books that i brought back home.Haven't you heard last minute studying is the shit yo ! haha. Well I guess almost everyone in uni choose to do last minute studying. Funny,how we can actually absorb everything in just a short period of time.Wahhh,so smart laa :P With the exception of Arab,that is. I studied the whole arabic grammar thingie you know the whola isim isyarah,isim mausul annd jumlah mufidah ALL in ONE DAY.Thanks to Jay ! :) Imagine only for one day. She taught us a lot I tell ya. By us I mean myself,hanim,nawal and syakirah.If not I'll prolly gone blank and just stare at the paper.

Thanks a bunch ya jay ! :) Eventhough the paper was effinng tough I felt like shooting someone...myself that is. Still,I managed to answer the grammar parts.not the essay part which is I don't know what to say -___________- there was like this *beep sound* in my head when I saw the essay. Luckily i asked help from the senior in my room who's taking TASL (Teaching Arab as a Second Language) to help me with the essay part. Am i boring you with all the talk about my Arabic exam ? I guess I am. Okay let's kick up a notch with some action.haha.pictures! Someone told me I should put more pics in this blog of mine. It looks slightly dead & dull.yawn!

Ustazah Jay in ACTION ! :DD




My colourful arabic notes ! SHOW OFF ! hahahaaha.

EARRGGGH.Internet explorer is super annoying.The window keep on closing by itself.BODOH ! Mozilla is wayyy better. Well I guess enough about the arabic exams.hehe. I went to PARAMORE almost 2 weeks ago and it was mind-blowing I tell yaaaa. Hayley Willams has got mad vocals,Josh Farro is sooo dreaammyy veryyy charming,Zac Farro,Jeremy Davis and Taylor York * York is sooo cute like hayley said he was 'THE JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE OF PARAMORE' *excited giggles* hehe. All in All the concert was AWESOME !!!!! One of the best concerts that I've been to. How I wish I can reverse back time and recapture and experience all the priceless moments.

During the concert,Josh Farro threw Zac's drumsticks to the audience and I was just a few inches away but knowing me I didn't want to get crushed by those people who was pushing to get it. The girl who got the drumsticks had a proud with a hint of terror look on her face because she was scared that people would knock her down to get those drumsticks. I'm exaggerating..just a bit. I really3 want to go back ! The next time they come back to Malaysia I'm gonna go early so that I won't have to push into the crowd to get the best view. I'm short, well you get the picture ryte ? hehs.Okay here are just a few pics. Not that much pics since the both of us make it three, me,ayin and abang were having fun so we didn't take that much pics. Oh I forgot to tell ya I snuck abang in. How cooool rite ! *poyo mode on* We only won two tickets for the rock zone.

At first,Abang just wanted to send us there. But then he would be wasting time,send us all the way to Bukit Jalil and drive all the way back to B.A and then have to come and pick us up all the way.Put the blame on me for not having my driver's license yet. Never mind,people have been putting the blame on me ever since. "Kamu laa ni x belajar driving betul..yada.yada.yada." Haih,which is kinda true. ooookaaay back to the story on how I snuck Abang in. Okay we only got 2 tix. So I had plan. I went outside took ayin's ticket with me told the people at the entrance who was sorta guarding and checking people who's gonna come in. Alaaa I don't know what to call them,the crew for the concert ? So I told them,a chinese girl that I left something in my car. And she said,ok2 you can go and take it ;). so then I saw abang outside and when he saw me he keep on walking untill we were at the parking lot quite far from the entrance. Gave him ayin's tickets and ask him to come in 10 mins after I've gone in.BOOYEEEAHHH ! He got IN ! so thats the storyyy.whoohooo ! credits to mee ! haha.I'd better stop now since its becoming such a lonngggggggg post !!! till then.take care and au revoir mes amis ! :)



Hayley Williams and Josh Farro !!! <3 (sorry for the blurry image we used a camera phone,hence this pic) credits to ayin!



Hayley Williams and Jeremy Davis.ROCK ON !!!



Ayin n meeeeee ! my spec was all foggy because I was sweating like a pig.hahaha.




Right after the concert ! My excited face ! :DD

Till then peeps ! TTFN-Ta ta for nowww ! :)

not worth it .

Well Hello2 dear bloggie. I've just noticed that this humble blog of mine is filled with nonsense and crappy reviews about movies. Seriously.. what was wrong with me ? Most prolly I didn't have a single clue on what to write about, so I just basically ramble and talk about all these stupid things. In other words to escape reality, hence I prefer to talk about other things that might.. I REPEAT .. might distract me. The thing that I fear most about this blog is that it will end up dead and dull just like yours truly.haha.

It has been almost 3 months since I last blogged. Many things happen along the way that I feel like not sharing about and was determined not to bitch about it. Somehow I would be like a coward never confronting people about the thing that pisses me off but then just bitching about in the blog. But then again most people choose to throw all of their bottled emotions that they just can't stand keeping it all inside and chose the easiest way. Yes the answer is either your blog,twitter,tumblr and of course your facebook status.

There's no point of doing all of this if those certain people still can't open their eyes to see what they're doing and thinking that it is A-OK to crush you into small tiny little pieces until you can't find back the missing pieces that is gone and try to stand once more and say hey I'm okay ! :) yeah u see. It is totally weird how people love putting in a double meaning in every sentence,heck in every conversation that they make. It is just their own way to express themselves plus they won't be so straightforward and It's a fact people don't like the ugly truth. They would rather choose to listen to lies than the truth. Sometimes when people can't stand it anymore they tend to exaggerate. This is because exaggeration is truth that has lost it's temper.

The funniest thing that happens to someone every time they think that they're going to do just fine. But then wham bham it gets sorta worse. So how do you handle it ? Let me see. First act like ever thing is okay and surely going to be better, Secondly keep yourself busy so that you won't feel like doing anything stupid like for instance strangling someone ? or hit them with a pillow ? Wow.haha. That is totally not what I had in mind it just came out of the blue. Hitting with a pillow. I mean like Say Waaaaaaaaaaat ? So kindergarden-ish/sleepover party kind of thing. I don't want to sound too violent. Ummm...okay I don't really have a third one. Sorry ran out of ideas.

I was wondering whether there are people out there who actually run around acting like their alter ego. Woah that will be super scary. If I were to do that I guess I would be friendless :/ But it's okay I don't need anyone right, I'm all alright on my own. Again a funny fact when people keep asking you, Are you okay ? Well clearly when people ask that kind of question they would surely have a rather sketchy idea that the particular person that they're asking is doing ummm how shall I say this .. not so good. . People don't need that much sympathy,turn them into a charity case and slowly killing them in the inside.

Most prolly they're really concern and that's a really good thing. Those people who are not doing so ok will feel slightly better than someone care even when they show the slightest hint. At least you know and not to keep burdening yourself with questions that keeps popping on and on till you feel like bursting into flames,kicking and screaming asking WHY.WHY.WHY

Imagine that people ? Quite a scary and disturbing image I must say. Again as easy as this sound but then It is not that easy to do is to just let go. Even if you don't let go there's still going to be that empty hole that can never be filled. It will be left abandoned. It will always be static. Never moving forwards nor backwards. It hurts,nevertheless eventually you'll live. Every time something drifts apart most people would cling on to the memories that they like of the person and try to remember it,even though the time that they had spent was just a short period time.As the moment passes you will realize If they don't need you anymore, you won't need them back. It is easier to move forward if you don't let others hold you back.

But don't ever lie to yourself. If you miss them just miss them,send some light to them and when the moment is gone, try not to be too sad about it. Take a deep breath and remember that you'll be alright. Every thing happens for a reason and we can never really know what the future might bring us. We cannot force ourselves into doing something that we don't want let alone becoming someone else. I'm sorry if I've hurt you along the way without even realizing it.

Albert Camus once wrote that, "Blessed are the hearts that can be bend. They shall never be broken". But there's where I wonder if there's no breaking that means there's no healing from the wounds. And If there's no healing then there's no learning. And if there's no learning then there's no struggle. But of course the struggle is part of life. And again I shall ask, So must all hearts be broken ? I'll let you answer that yourself . Till then my dear bloggie ;) As said by Ketut Liyer from the movie Eat.Pray.Love,See You Later, Alligator ! :P

Don't wake me up I'm still dreaming of stories undone

I don't get it why you don't get it :D

Hey loves :) I wanted to blog about the short outing with syakirah and hanim last night but then I was too busy TRYING to add subjects for the upcoming semester which is just in two days time. As usual the line was busy and it we can't even get through let alone add the subjects. But now it is all good. All i need to do now is pack up my stuff to go back to campus which is one of the things i dreaded most. I hate packing because then i would have to find all my stuffs which I've left for almost a month and would it all be dusty and prolly some of the things are misplaced somewhere else. I can't help it,I'm such a forgetful person. GAAH ! :PP

Well okay,yesterday syakirah,hanim and I went out to watch the twilight saga third installment : Eclipse. I gotta admit it I was a huge fan of the books when it first came out. Still is actually. I've only read the 3 books and I'm going to buy the last one which is Breaking Dawn soon. I prefer the books rather than the movies. The stories is very well written and I love how Stephanie Meyer expressed the emotions very precisely. I love the fact that the book is full with action,suspense, a bit of thriller,but at the same time it is also very romantic.

Still I loved going out to go watch the movies whether it lived up to the expectation of the book. It was good but not great. The fight scenes was pretty dope ! Only the earlier part of the movie was a bit slow. I enjoyed it but still I prefer the first one,Twilight. That's the best one. Taylor Lautner did a job well done in his role as Jacob. I think he looks slightly buff-er.ahahaha. Kristen was ... okay and Robert Pattinson is sexy as always. Hahahaa! Yes I'm in denial, I don't normally admit that I liked him.hehe :P The tent scene was perfect exactly as what I've imagined :) The background stories of Japer and Rosalie was also very nice but I think they left out Emmet in Rosalie's storie. No harm there,at least it is just a small fragment in the book. Of course there are many scenes that they cut from the book to save time I presume. If they were to put all of it into the movie I'd say the movie would go on for about 4-5 hours. Who would've want to see that long for a movie right ? ;) Overall I absolutely loved it minus the slow part in the beginning looking forward for Breaking Dawn but first I have to read it first ! ;)





the meadow :)





Told ya he looks waaaayyyyyy buff-er ! ;P





OOOOOOOH,can you feel the tension building up ? :PP





Werewolves attacking newborns.the epic fight scene ! :D

I guess thats all from et moi. Till then,toodloo loves ! =)

Hello daddy, hello mom I'm your ch ch ch ch ch ch cherry bomb ! :D

Hello2 dear bloggie :) Almost a week now,well less than a week for classes to start. A bit excited since some of my friends are coming to gombak and can't wait to meet all of them, it has been quite some time since we've last met. I'm planning to go back to campus a bit early so that I can put all my stuff in the room and clean up the room. It will be easier that way,no hassle. I've always do everything at the very last minute. This time it is gonna be a bit different though and hopefully it will work out. No more last minute in everything that I do.hehe :P

I've been spending my holidays with dvds,watching the complete season 2 of 90210 :D and going out with family and friends ;) Oh yeah of course helping my mum out with her cakes which never cease to bore me. It is what keeps me busy if not prolly I'll be bored to death. I don't know how others can do it, 3 months of holidays doing nothing. Dayyuuum ! But at least they get enough holidays and they should NOT be complaining about how the holidays are soooo short and bla .. bla.. bla. God ! Isn't 3 months enough already ? o.O haha.

Hmm okay let's go back to what I've been wanting you folks about. Last night I watched The Runaways played by Dakota Fanning and Kristen Stewart. Those two were the ones I can remember since they played the main characters as Joan Jett and Cherrie Currie. The storyline was not that bad but it was nothing to shout about. It was alright. I must say that Dakota was quite good in the movie,she played Cherrie Curie really well. I prefer her rather than Kristin Stewart. Kristin was alright but I don't know she keep on like scratching her head or should i say her hair sorta like what her on and off screen boyfriend R-Patz always do. Most probably they think, they look cool ??? HAHAHAHAHA. Okay this is seriously out of topic. I tend to ramble and don't know wtf I'm talking about sometimes. Thousand apologies for that . hehe :P All in all it was not really a great movie. I like it simply its about an all-girls band trying to make a mark in the music industry. I've always had a thing for this Girl Power thingy. hehe. What impressed me most was that Cherrie Currie was only 15 when she first joined the band. Cool ey ? ;)





The Runaways :D Cherrie Currie is in the middle and on the far right side is Joan Jett.





The Runaways.Live in Japan ! This so is so damn good and everytime I hear it feels so rebellious


The sad thing about this movie is that they potray teenagers using drugs at a very young age and how Cherrie cannot really control her addiction. Their lives must have been really shitty during those days plus there was not much respect for an all-girls band during that time.

Okay this is the movie version of Cherry Bomb. I prefer the original version,but this one is quite cool as well ;)



Wow this whole post is about the Runaways and the movie mostly the videos. What can I say I love them and if they were present during these days I'll surely be one their biggest fan.hehe.poyo gle :P

Tomoroe I'm gonna go watch eclipse with Syakirah and Hanim ! Double Yay ! Dah lame gle x jumpe syakirah can't wait to see her tomoroe oh ya n hanim too of course ;)





Not that enthusiastic to watch this movie actually.Frankly it is getting too overrated -_________- which bores the hell out of me. But I would still love to watch it, see if Edward still has that effects on the audience or should I say movie-goers. Because last time people practically/sorta shouted when he comes out. I know weird right ??? Currently I'm watching Vampire Diaries and totally loving it. For those who thinks that Vampire Diaries is like Twilight. That is where you people are wrong. It is not totally different but it is a bit different . Stefan and Damon Salvatore are waaaaaayy cooler ! Waaaaaaaay ! HAHAHA. Oooooh I forgot to mention that they are wayy hotter as well. At least they don't sparkle ! LOL-ing. However above all this vampire bloodsucking creatures tv series or movie True Blood Vampires are the most vicious of them all and not to mention horny as hell ! Season 3 is coming up and I just want to watch what happens to Bill Compton and Sookie Stackhouse as well as Eric Northman. Haih . So many vampires so little time ! I think,I'd betta stop here. Im not gonna bore all of you about all these bloodsucking creatures though I find them fascinating :D k,till then loves ! Au Revoir ~

Schizotypal + Narcissistic :'(

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

Dear bloggie,what a way to start posting an entry after 2 long months on hiatus. I found this link on hanim's blog and thought that it was really interesting. But the results that I've gotten is a definite shocker and kinda sad as well. Haih so sad :'( Hanim said that it is just a quiz and it follows our mood sometimes so it can never be accurate. I don't know why but I'm a bit depressed with the results. I never thought that I was a narcissistic before and a schizo what again ? -____- don't blame me.psychology + me, a big NO NO. Not really one of my best subjects I must say.only managed to score a B which is equivalent to boring much ?!

Still slightly annoyed and depressed with the results.GAAAAH ! I've not been posting an entry for so long...hmmm maybe because I'm depressed ? I guess so. Not depressed I guess just bored. Not bored just annoyed. It is all in one.Haih.I didn't want to write any of this because I don't like to post an entry when I'm all emo, whereby I did that a year ago and now when I look back I feel that it was so childish to be doing that. Sometimes I feel it is kinda lame and pathetic . So in order to distract myself from posting any lame and pathetic entries I watch Glee, Vampire Diaries and of course Big Bang MV'S. Hell yeah they're the ultimate BFF's if you want to escape reality. For me that is. I'm not so sure about u guys tho :|

See, how bad this goes . I should have not post an entry if I don't know what to write about let alone what the hell I'm feeling right now. I'm numb.That's it.I'm gonna stop typing if not I'll start crapping more n more. So till then, just a little reminder tried once,tried twice but still no response just wait for em. The person will pop in when you least expects them to come to their senses ;) Believe in it and the that believe will help create the fact. Till then peeps. Au revoir ~

ps : I know this post is boring & lame -___________- will post a better entry.soon !