Sometimes you're closest friend is your greatest enemy..

I've been hopping from one person to another this past few weeks.I don't know what's wrong me or maybe it has something to do with the people around me.haih.seriously i just don't know.Sometimes,when you depend too much on certain people and thinking that one day they might need u back,well i'd say that is half-true.

Who am I to judge all these people right?I'm just a normal human being who has flaws too and i can't expect them to be all perfect like things that you can just click on it and program it . I can't make them to things that they don't want to do or worse force them into doing it.So i would opt for doing the things that i want to do alone.

They say that misery loves company.what if you're miserable and there's no one that you can turn to.Misery does not love company okay. i just don't get it. You might think that i sound like a whiny bitch. Whatever,sometimes you need to let it all out and you would feel slightly better.

I know i should be grateful to the friend that is always there to listen to all of my crappy stories.No need for names to be mentioned here because i think you know who you are;) As for the rest, I just don't know what to say.Well maybe,i guess i should just forget all this ever happened,let it be.

This is something i got from google

As quoted by Waqas Ahmad

"Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks".


Maybe,just maybe they don't realize that they're actually hurting you when they are pleasing others. Is it jealousy?hmm.i'm not sure.I need to keep my mind off things that would just distract me.Hence i should just put on a fake smile and act like the others.should i?or should not?haha.WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!


Sometimes i wish i could do things that my alter ego would do.That is sooooo not happening.or even do the things that the little voice inside my head ask me to do.Okay once in a while you can use it but not all the time.I don't know what people would think of me if i were to act like my alter ego.that's a funny yet thrilling thought.

What more to say?I should be more optimistic not pessimistic,concentrate more on the classes rather than other than remembering things that is complicated.I'd better stop stop writing about this,i'm afraid that it might be too transparent.I would like to end my entry with a quote that i was quite fond of =D


"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival."
C. S. Lewis

i'm hooked ;D

Don't take me for granted because you don't know the real ME

Why do people always make their own assumptions?I would say its just their excuse to avoid the things that they don't want to be involved.so they would make up silly excuse saying that maybe this person just wants to do this and that without even asking that particular person.just to avoid them like the plug.haih.I'm feeling slightly peachy these past few days.

Everyday is the same old shit until you get tired of doing the same thing on and on.Nonetheless,classes are fine.always looking forward for poli sciences class.other than that there's nothing interesting really.Sometimes,when you think that people would change that would be a huge NO NO.bile bagi muke ko nk lebih2 pulak kn?!a huge letdown.


Oh ya one more thing pls don't be such a bloody *^&*^%^ busybody,asking questions that you know damn well i won't answer.so patheticlaa weyh.You may think i look like all jolly when i answer but get the messagela if i'm not that keen to answer it.don't asklaaaa.haih.still don't get the message.
Get a lifelaaaaaaaaa!

Arggghhhh!so fucked up.I need to run away from this all,feeling secluded from the world.I need to get back home and i would certainly feel much much better.What's the use of having ppl who don't understand me.it would depress me even more. Sometimes being alone feels much better,rather than when you're with too many people and sometimes you don't even know why you're there.

Yes,I know i should be grateful with what i have but sometimes well actually most of the time you can never get what you want.Disappointments, because you would always expect more from people. Sometimes you would disappoint people along the way when you're too busy to pleasing them. Note to self you don't have to please others if u don't feel good about yourself. Learn to love yourself then only people would love you for what you are;)

It feels like everything is slipping away,and i don't know how to mend them back.I guess its true what people say that you can't always stick with the same clan or group you need to branch out then only you can find the real YOU.


LBNL,i miss you Syira xD!!!Wish you were here to listen to all my crappy stories;(




luvyalotslikejellytots ;D

emotionless?

Hey2!I've not posted any entry for quite sometime right.I was not in the mood for it plus nothing interesting has been happening lately except that now I'm in main campus ;D.I don't really feel like elaborating right now because I'm rather sleepy right now.haha.serves me right for going to psych class when i don't even have any classes to go.poli science got canceled because my lecturer had to go give some talk.sooo,my day just got boring-er because that is the class that i would look forward to go too;D
The best part about this place is all my friends.They're the best!since i don't know what to write anymore i better stop writing NOW.if not i'll probably be writing crappy things.hehs.till them.adios amigos ('',)





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If i could wish upon tomorrow,tonight would never end..

I'm feeling slightly cheesy right now.this song has been playing thru my mind since last nite.haha.this is my fav song from archie ;D.i've got to go for my first class bahasa melayu lanjutan,just felt like blogging.hee~so till den.toodloo~

all set to go ;D

Well,actually i'm not entirely ready to go to gombak just yet.There are a few things that i still need to buy.brooches,slacks,all those other knick knacks and other stuffs.i hate packing just because we have to gather back all the things that we have put away for a month or so and by the time that we need them back it would all be covered in dust.ewww.i know.


I'm such a lazy bum because normally some things are already stored there not the clothes of course,it would come in handy if it was put in one certain place.I've just watch one of my sneakers and my green flats becaues it looks dirty+uglayh.didn't want to buy shoes just yet because i'm broke ;(.haha!so,just have to make do with what i have.for now.


After this abang would be bringing me to buy some of the things that i would be needing.Just now went to check on the campus,mummy wanted to ask about the fees and some other enquiries.I went to check on the mahallah,and my guess was right i got into mahallah safiyyah,the same mahallah that shigim's friend fie use to stay der and the hostel's still new.yay!

At least the place would still be new eventhough if i would only stay there only for taaruf week,which means a week i guess.I'll be staying off-campus since its just a few minutes drive to my house.but that has not been decided yet,we'll have to wait and see what happens tomorrow.If i'll be blogging i think it would be in a weeks time.till then.adios amigos ;D

You GUYS rock my world!!! xD

Yesterday i went out with syakirah,atiyyah and zura.weee.what a day it was.you guys truly made my day :)).too bad nawal was not around.If she was there that would make my day.hee.as usual,i was late to meet up syakirah n atiyyah at klcc.Abang wanted to eat first at mak jah,so have to endure him if not he won't send me kn.matiii.haha!then went to topshop to see that syakirah and atiyyah was already in a heavy conversation about i don't know what.


After that we went to the food court,because tya wanted to eat apebende tah name that thingy.The usual,syakirah and me were discussing about politics,rosmah,nizar,najib.blablabla.the fact that newspapers,tv is oh-so-biased especially tv3.democracyla sgt kn.hmmm.if nawal were there plus zura,i don't know what would happen.world war 3 i guess.so,better not discuss about this if zura is around because its quite a sensitive issue plus we wouldn't want to ruin our friendship.all these people get all the money from US,and what do we get back?!i'm actually sick and tired of the politicking in Malaysia,but what to do ryte?


okay,i was totally crapping up there.lari topic.it was a fun filled day,from klcc we walked to bb because zura was treating us lunch.weeee.thanx zura.we ate at nasi ayam chee meng.then zura sed that jijol was gonna join us at pavi since he wanted to go shopping.I,myself bought an electric blue(yeke?) off shoulder tee,since shigim has the green one so we can always trade.Then we went into topshop and i tried this one effin cute dress with heart shapes on it.looked at the price tag.a big NO NO.;( haahaa.nvm2.


Next we went to dorothy perkins and i saw those really cute dresses that i've been wanting for so long.still i didn't buy it.I wanted to ask mummy's opinion first whether it suits me or not.there was this really colourful and vibrant arrays of plain tees and it was only for 3 for rm79.really2 cheap.zura wanted us to buy each one so that it would be cheaper.but tya and syakirah didn't really want it.so,we decided not to buy it.


Then we went to klcc,to get back home.I sent tya to the lrt station to bade her goodbye n all.somehow me and zura bought the shirt from dorothy perkins at parkson because she just brought herself two long cardi for only 70 bucks.she wanted the shirts to go with it.too bad the vibrant orange shirt was out of stock.i really3 wanted that colour but i opt for the skin coloured/brown(i guess).oh ya we met up with dila and kamal at the body shop.dila was all the way from nilai.she was supposed to join us earlier but her class finished quite late and our last stop was at signatures.my legs was all cramp already.so damn tired.it was worth it because i get to meet all of u guys;)as quoted by azura 'luv you guys to the max'
till then.au revoir~