the great pretender!

okay,so today didn't work out as i planned.too bad.i wanted to bake a batch of chocolate chips but somehow i got sidetrack by the workload and orders that mummy asked her to help with.kinda dissapointed but nevermind there's always tomorrow.then i would have to wake up early tomorrow(again).pls.pls.no heavy orders for tomorrow:)

at 6.00pm today,they would air reruns of american idol and oh ya kris allen won.i didn't really follow this season's AI.maybe i'm just not up for it.last year i can't even miss even one concert.maybe its because of michael johns(how to spell his name ah?) or maybe even archie?kris allen is impossibly cute.the kind of bloke who makes ur heart melts everytime he sings.really?haha.i love it when he sang ain't no sunshine when she's gone.truly remarkable.

arrggggghhhh.well i'm actually so effing pissed off rite now.why are people so hard to understand?okay.that's a factla.you've just got to deal with it.one time they're like really nice to you the next time they're acting like total jerk ass/loser/psychopath/motherfucker!.maybe they're just a bunch of jack-asses/kg ppl who're just too bored with their lives.get a fucking life you asshole!!!!i feel so betrayed right now :S

arghhhhhh!geramnye.stop living in the pastlaa weyh.let go of the past.put it all behind.you can never forgive people if you're still living in the past.jgn jadi immature sgt pls?its not gonna get you anywhere okay?get it?yes,now u'll get the satisfication.let''s see in the next 10 to 15 years are you still gonna act like that?come on laa weyh.grow up laa!stop being such a baby.you are not in high school you #$@$$#%@#$!

i guess i've never learn my lesson.never trust people who's alreay hurt you especially if they've hurt you like a gazillion times.stop thinking too much about other people in the end u'll lose it all.why this kind of things keep happening to me?why?!maybe i'm just too weak,that's why people can just bully me whenever they feel like it.or maybe they're jealous?yeke?i doubt that.


i really think this kind of people should be put in a room with a bunch of really3 psycho lunatic people and they're the only ones in the room.then only they would appreciate other people.i guess that's the best way.bestnye dpt campak dorang kt tempat tu.confirm xtau nk buat ape.amek kau!

okay...i'm getting a bit emo here already.*sigh*btw please don't think i'm stupid okay.by now,i've already know ur antics.so please stop it okay.it juz gets so frustrating when u thot that ppl could actually change and forgive you.well i guess i'm wrong.a leopard can never change its spots.ya,allah.geramnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

so sod off u bloody losers!stop trying to act all goody2 two shoes infront of me.i don't think it will work the next time.i've got to be strong.yes we can!be strong people.ok till then~i betta stop writing takut byk lg mencarut.

ps:mind the language;p one more thing i really hope this is not one of my false judgement or maybe even my unwarranted assumptions.because i've got a hunch that this kind of 'people' really just love messing up with people.wtf!


hey!you think you're the only one who can play this game ah?!pegi matilaa weyh.get a life!!!!

sg gabai trip ;D

so,i told ya i was gonna blog about my sungai gabai trip.it was sooooo much fun.but i've got to say that it was my first and last trip.haha!i was sooo effing tired.i was cursing the whole way(time nk daki).wut shud i call it.erm,the rocks to climb up was sooo slippery.i was soo afraid i might've fallen off.luckily i didn't.the stairs was soo steep n so damn byk!mengalahkan tannga at batu caves.should've taken a picture of it.half way through i was already out of breath.so not fit=p note to self befpre doing this kind of activities,i need to exercise first.overall,it was a lotta of fun but the not-so-good part is sakit kaki,sengal2 badan n etc.but whatever it is i did enjoyed myself:);D

here are some of the many pics that meme took;)


































picture of the day =)haha!


the next day my brother,k.tetty and I went to 3r's event:wisel untuk wanita to buy tickets to hari bintang jatuh:3 venus.i'm sooo excited;D can't wait to go.weeeeee~oh ya wani ardy performed a number of songs but i only recorded one song which is kaca angkasa but the video was kinda shaky coz i was soo excited to see her performing plus it was my first time seeing her perform live.so enjoy the vid:) sorry the video is not of high quality.till then~au revouir~;D

finally...

The excited look on my face on the very last day in CFS IIUM Nilai Campus;D

finally i'm outta that place.haha.it was actually kind of sad,leaving that place eventhough the day before i was freaking excited to get the hell out of that place.on the very last day,something really stupid happened.some fucked up idiot stole my audrey hepburn pencil case which only cost rm 10 and in my pensil case there was my keys to my room.babi ah.


the weird part is I put the pencil case with my crs on my bed.i guess some stupid cheapskate idiot took it.it was impossible that i misplaced it because one of my roomie saw me bringing it inside the room.what the hell la weyh.pegi jelaa beli kt jonker street.murah je kot,10 bucks only.at that moment i fell like shouting and cursing at the same time at my roomies(dalam hati jela).it wasn't their fault pon,but i just needed someone that can be blamed for.


infront of the i stayed calm(tp still bising2 jgk) trying to find it over and over again.still,could not be found.azura even accompanied me back to seminar hall to find it which is highly unlikely beacause they remembered me bringing it back to the hostel.when i was searching high and low for it,there was announcemnt 'Kepada sesiapa yang ade kehilangan pencil case sila ke pos pak guard sekarang.my friends was saying maybe the someone that took it felt guilty kot,because somehow maybe they felt guilty because i was blabbering all the way in the room.


when i went there.hampa.not mine.if it was somebody else's.i was sooo depressed because i rilly needed the keys to my room,if not kene compoundla.haih.so,i was left with no choice had to go to mahallah office told them that i lost my keys and i had to pay 20 friggin bucks.wut a waste of money.shakira also got compounded but she knew it already.in my case,on the very day itself that i wanted to return the keys i lost it.stupid fuck.arggghhhh.


what a way to end my last semester.redha jelaa.everything happens for a reason.why o why.hish.so absent-minded.afrah came with atie and meme to fetch me up.the next day we went to sungai gabai.but i'll guess i'll be posting a new entry.dh x larat nk tulis.otak dh jam.till then~





muke 'happy' after bayar compound.haha:/

The leaving song

"E.E. Cummings once wrote; 'To be nobody-but-yourself - in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.'"


"Tennessee Williams once wrote; When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely, it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone."


"Henry James once wrote: 'Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact."


"Henry David Thoreau once wrote: 'Live each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit and resign yourself to the influences of each."

These are some of my personal favourite quotes i took from my all-time favourite show one tree hill:)somehow the 6th season is a major dissapointment.the plots keeps getting boring.it goes round and round untill it gets back to square one.haih.major frustation;(

I can't believe it!tonight would be my last night here in nilai and i'm blogging from my study room and its already 2.00 o'clock in the morning.I've just finished studying computer for tomorrow's final paper which is computer.this would be the last night that i would be sleeping in this room.insyaallah.hopefully no repeats;)

i don't even know what to feel.leaving this place.sad?excited?happy?enthusisatic?nervous?i guess its a mix of all that.well,what i know for sure is i will surely miss this place.especially my close friends:)they're the best.no one can replace them.i don't have to mention names here because i'm sure you know who i'm referring to.heee;p

I will surely miss group 14.It was the best class ever:):)we had all the coolest xD lecturers in the first semester 1.My favourite lecturer is sir AO's.by far he's the best one.He is very tolerant,eventhough well actually most of the time we're like zombies in the class.haha!that's what he says to us.he's really unique in his own way that sometimes scares me a bit.Sometimes he would ask a question,and each and every one of us would have to answer.For example'How would you one someone to show their love towards you?'and each and everyone of us would have to answer the questions.

During semester 2,it was really a hectic semester especially with BMW subject.Sir Alizaman gave us a hard time to complete our research proposal.and my group najwa,aisyah and me perasan-pandaila-sgt chose a really difficult topic which is about semptember 11 attack.gle susah.stayed up late at night.up to the point that we didn't even sleep because sir ali wanted our project to be as perfect and he wants it his way.so our proposal got rejected 3 times in a row.it was really frustrating,but we never gave up.we had to redo it all over again and alhamdulillah during the final submission our proposal got accepted.I was extremely happy,i even jumped(just a bit)hehe in front of sir ali because all the hard work has been paid off.


All my classmates,even sacrificed our time doing the work together.Jay help us out a lot and gave us a few pointers,because her group was the first proposal that was approved.C-2-11.This was the class,that all my classmates gathered to finish up the proposal.right after class we took our baths,brought our laptops and spend our time there.from 5.30 to 10.00 p.m straight.to those who wanted to take their bath,other classmates have to keep watch of the class because there were laptops in the class.so have to jagela.

There's just too many memorable moments here in nilai,and if i would be given the chance to list it all out it would take me a whole day.i'm gonna miss this place:(i can't believe i'm saying this.i will miss CFS IIUM Nilai. i can't wait to go to Gombak!xD weeeeee(",)

Happy Mummy's day!<33

Mummy,i'm proud and thankful that you are the woman who raised me to become the person that i am today.One day,i hope to become just like you;)

A Mother is...

She who can take the place of all others,but whose place no one else can take

-Cardinal Mermillod-
to mummy dearest:

I love you so much mummy!I could spend a lifetime searching for the rights words to say to you,of how much you mean to me.you mean the world to me:) without you my world would be gloomy and full with sorrow and sadness,i would be lost.Thanks for always being there for me,to catch me whenever i fell and gave me encouragement to fight back whenever times get hard.Today i want to tell you of how much you're loved,cared and appreciated.Thank you for giving me life.Thank you for being strong me whenever i need someone to hold on to.You are truly remarkable mummy and I can't fully describe of how much you mean to me.Thanks for being you,my one and only Mummy.I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH <333 and nothing's gonna change that.


So today is mother's day.Happy Mother's day to all mothers,mummies,ibus,emaks,bondas;D.hope you cherish this day with your loved ones.well today went well.as usual i woke up quite late today around 11.am.took my bath and ran downstairs and give mummy a great big hug:) i don't usually do this.for shigim and ayin,yes.but not me.i don't know why.well maybe i'm just not that type of girl who shows much emotions.really?haahaa.

I cook lunch.nothing special.i fried some fish tempura/fish fillets(pacific west) with mummy.shigim and ayin went outside to buy mummy gift/flowers/cards.i didn't follow.If i did,i would feel guilty since i've got no money.i"m broke :( used too much money on food in nilai.i guess i'm just one-hungry-girl.

ya,the flowers that ayin and shigim bought was sooooo pretty.there were roses(white and purple ones) and hydrangea(fake ones),but people who came in to collect cakes thought it was real.funny.a customer even asked 'why didn't you put any water in the vase?'mummy said that the flowers were not real except for the roses.he look slightly amazed.there's a few pics that ayin took of the preetty2 flowers.we somehow decorated the house with rose petals,ayin's gift,our mother's day cars on top of the table.




see.it looks real rite?





on top of the cupcakes are rose petals:) heee~





gifts and cards for mummy dearest :D





That's my card for mummy xD


Later,we had dinner at...






Here are some of the many pictures that ayin took:)thanx ayin!





what i ate;p




ayin with a satisfied look on her face.hehe.




Shigim:)



Abang eating desert.


lets's end this post with the last picture of me and ayin




i love you sistah,eventhough i seldom say it!xD.hehe.

that's all me.cheerios everyone!hope you spend today 10.05.09 with your mother,ibu,emak,bonda or mummy.luvulotslikejellytots;p